Unfortunately, I did not have the privilege to grow up in a household with my Father. Some ask how did it change you as a person? Were you angry? Were you sad? Do you feel like you have daddy issues? The answer is no.
I never thought, growing up without a father would determine my fate as a human being. Fortunately, God placed specific people in my life to encourage me to know better and do better. To reach for things beyond my community. To want more out of life than what was around me.
I first recognized that I didn’t have a dad when I was about 6 years old. I cried, asked my mom where was my dad, and why wasn’t he here? She explained the situation and I later to came to understand through a series of unfortunate events that my parents did not stay together, and unfortunately my dad was not in my life. I honestly felt like after that moment, I never felt sad about not having my dad around again.
Much later, I developed a relationship with my dad and for me, it honestly felt like no time had passed. We didn’t miss a beat. I was never angry. Being angry never felt like the “right” emotion to have towards my father. True, he wasn’t there, but I never felt like I was missing anything. I always felt like I had everything I needed from my mom and the community around me. I always felt spiritually and physically taken care of.
Feeling close to God at a young age also gave me comfort. For as long as I could remember I was always drawn to God and I’ve always had a relationship with Him. I’ve always felt safe, protected, and guided. Although, I didn’t have my physical father, I’ve always felt the presence of my spiritual Father.
So the words of this song resonate with me so well. “The fatherless, they find their rest at the sound of your great name.” Jesus died so that we could be sons and daughters of God. God knew before we were created that “though my father and mother forsake me, the LORD will receive me.” Psalm 27:10
“For He chose us in Him before the foundation of the world to be holy and blameless in His presence. In love He predestined us for adoption as His sons through Jesus Christ, according to the good pleasure of His will.” If that doesn’t bring you joy inside, I don’t know what will. If you are feeling abandoned and like no one loves you, no one cares, look to God. Cliche and cheesy to some, but very true. I am proof. You already belong to Him and He will never leave you no matter how many times you try to run away. Feel free to share your stories in the comments below. ♥